back again.. =)

hehe.. jz bored..so blog for a while.. =) seems like year 2009 goin to end soon..2010 is coming jz in few days more.. in de year 2009.. can say is de most suffering n enjoying year for mi.. as in more details..i wont mention it out.. experiencing somethg i never tried b4.. doing somethg where oredy noe is totaly wrong.. making those stupid decision.. haiz... but...stil wanna thx to "U".. i'll never 4get de thgs we been through.. de thgs dat we had done.. de place we've been there.. de words dat u said to mi.. de way u act.. everythg bout u..i'll never 4get.. thx 4 giving mi dis nice memory in 2009.. ~0830~ =) (^@^)

BYEZ..

dun feel like blogging anymore..
bored n no1 will cares bout it too..haha..
no more new update..
oni will when my blogging mood is back..mostly not..

Sayonara~ Beezz <3

*BUZZ*

geezzz..duno kena stung by wad.. very very very itchy!!
wan to scratch but cannot.. 3days ler.. T_T n de mark stil there... omg...dowan another 5cent mark ler.. hate it!! hate it!!

Trials over..STPM comin..

Trials at last over ler..n get all my marks too.. i've been surprised for some of my marks.. 1st of all..de most surprised mi is my PP(business) mark.. since last year til now..every exam..i've never pass b4..of course its not easy..n not many ppl wil pass too..til dis time..my trial..when i look at my mark(after rushing here n there to search for mr.cheng to get our paper2 marks n let mr.neoh count de total marks include paper1 n 2 quizzzzz) *shocked* I PASS DIS TIME!!..wow..very happy dat day...haha.. *stil smiling til now* =p yippie...~~ but..but..there's oso another subject...very disappointing..my account..i duno wad happen recently..my account drop terribly..from 78 drop til 24 in my mid-term exam..n now..22!! walao eh..wad happen!! T_T n honestly said..i spend most of my time doing account..n de marks is worst den other subject dat i totaly never study at all..oni look through on the day of de exam!!very sad lah... haiz...de rest..stil okok nia..mayb..too much thgs happen recently.. okok..now..STPM is jz 2~3 more weeks like dat nia..!! wha...scare lah...how..haiz..i oso duno..wad i can do for now is jz try my best.. BEEZZ WILL NEVER FALL.. =) +u+u BEEZZ!! lastly,wish all my frenz hu is taking thier final exam,SPM or STPM.. "All da Best"BEEZZ~ <3>

Thankz & Sorriess

having de exam for dis 2 weeks..very tired..
its was my 1st time having so stress in my exam..
SPM time..not realy take it dat serious oso..stil having fun..
wake up on time..ready for exam..
dis time my trials..purposely wake up early in de morning jz to study..
ahh...so sleepy after dat..was once happen during my exam i fell asleep..lucky wake up on time..stil manage to finish it..(phew..)
but..most of my papers i crap inside..i duno whether is it gonna b correct or wrong..
but realy no ideas wad to write..by letting it blank..better i crap there..
realy hopes my results wont drop dat much...

feels so sorry towards mr.ong...our econs teacher.. might b my paper1 stil ok..
but..from my paper2..i noe im s**k on it..my essay sure all gone..
my paper2 result is pulling my marks down!! oh swt~
im sorry sir..im disappointing u..

btw..gonna thx to 1 of de frenz..of course bside him..stil got others..but he realy helps mi alot during dis 2 weeks of my exam..he tries to cheer mi up everydayz..letting mi noe some meaningful of nice quote..xplaining to mi...making jokes..when im bored,he chat wit mi..when im stress,he chill mi down..thx for being my frenz..my greatest gift for dis year,to hav such a nice frenz as u..thx..haha..( for those hu gonna think others..*ahem* jz frenz nia) =3=
thx for some of my frenz too...especially susu!!(U6A3 class monitor)..yea..thx alot to u..
sry dat im keeps bla bla bla bside u..thx for hearing my problems..share my problems.. =)

of course there's stil another person..guess hu..haha..sure my bf lah..lolx..
im sorry dar..but thx alot dar..i noe my attitude dis fews week r very bad..
thx for everythg dat u did..im sorry dar..mayb..my stpm coming soon..n im stress alot..
i shout at u..asking u do dis n dat...wadever u say..i keep shooting u back...when my mood is not gud,u try to cheer mi up..but in de end kena marah pula..im sry...but..thx 4 accompany mi dar..
dis year end..wil gonna determained our future..we both gonna face our own exams..
dar~ +u+u!!! u can make it!~ (^3^)

gonna leaving de sch soon ler..realy will miss all of u..we might not meet so frequently..mayb some of my frenz r going to work overseas..not staying around in penang..but..rmb..our frenzship wil never end..LUV YEA!!

~Beezz~ =)

blood donation!! o.o

donated my blood 2day..yeah...feels nice when can help ppl..
but..y dis time de nurse poke de needle so pain de!!
totally terbalik wit my 1st time donate blood..
y i say so leh..coz..1st time..duno wad their using..sometime to poke ur finger there
to check wad blood type r u..dats y very very very pain!!(1st time la..)
no notice oso at 1st..suddenly *piak* omg! tears almost drop..T_T
haiz..everythg was ok..done le..next section pula..check blood pressure n weight..hmm..normal..
dun feels anythg much..continue to de next 1...pass de form..some1 there wil prepare a basket
with all those empty blood pack n some tiny tiny bottles..lalala...ok..time to donate le!
a very tiny needle to make a hole there..(1st time totally not pain..dun even notice
theres a needle inject inside oso..haha..fun! but duno y dis time..which 2nd time oni..
ahh!! pain!!! duno on de right spot enot de..so pain...)haiz...hmm..de most scary de oso de 1 dat not pain at all =3= kinda big hole mia needle!!lols~
blood start flowing...haha...look so cool! my blood~~ =p
somethg funny was...my 1st time..blood flow q slow.. o.o
2nd time..kinda fas...lols!! if accident sure die very fas de..haha..
looking at my blood..keep flowing... =p
in de process is very fun...after dat..great..time to feel dizzy le..haiz...
stil bit dizzy now..haha...floating de...
but worth it..at least can help those needed~ ^^

fail soon(stpm)

haha..back again..lols..duno wanna post bout wad..
haizzz..
ok...trial soon!! 1 more month left n stil havent start studying anythg..
die lah..wonders if dis time realy can pass enot..
totaly bo mood study at all..
mind was tinking..okok..study..study..study..
wanna start nia..open on de chapter..omg..time to close..or either wil do others else..
kekeke...
hmmp...lets c wad subject i mostly wil fail liao..
PA(pengajian am)...i hate drawing graph..!! as in y i say hate drawing graph..thx to sakun..1 week finish up 17 graph!! imagine each graph almost took 1~1.30 hours to finish up!! geezzz...my 1st time using so long time to finish up PA homework..lols...kinda surprise...haha..kenegaraan paper..sure i die de..almost all related to sejarah(most hate subject!!)..so conclusion for PA=half dead..on de way fail..
AK(account)..hmmp..not sure bout dis ..but mostly oso wil fail d..so many account to open..so many teori..havent start practice open all de account yet...wad if come out..lols..oni can stare on ppl..o.o
PP(business)..pass or not..not sure..but should b de result higher den previous exam..paper 2..mr.cheng keep giving so called as latihan but jz like test..lols...hope can pass dis time...
EK(economi)..hmm..of all de subject..can say so..dis de better 1..at least never fail b4.. kekeke..
q luv dis subject oso..although not easy...all de..formula..faint!!
MUET..donid say d la..over d..q pity for de 1 retake de..haiz..meet our sexy bac..die loh...haha...

lalala~~sound like most of it is FAIL!!
lols... wadever den... gud luck for those PMR,SPM n STPM..

no new post comin~

not going to post anythg new..
no mood on writing anythg
since..if yes oso..mostly r somethg i feel bad..
so..
i prefer not going to post
jz keep it inside my heart..
mayb..hope..wish..
de somethg sad can disappeared soon

thx 4 those hu r stil reading dis..
gud luck for all de frenz dat having exam
n take care urself too..dun fall sick..
seems de Hot 1 Naughty1(H1N1)
is kinda serious now..so..take care yea all my beloved frenz..

Nothing gonna change my love for you~

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would be all empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever,so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They’ll take us where we want to go

Nothing’s gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I’ll never ask for more than your love
The world may change my whole life through but
nothing’s gonna change my love for you

if the road ahead is not so easy
our love wil lead the way for us like a guiding star
I’ll be there for you if u should need me
You don’t have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are

So come with me and share this view
I’ll help you see forever too

Her Diary of Hope

My mother's last rites were completed today.Friends and relatives made their presence felt.As I look at my mother's photograph in de hall, I fell as if the picture is talking to me.Asking me questions that I hadn't answered.I cannot comprehend the strange silence within me as I try to stop flood of good,old memories.
Something strange is happening to me today.What is it,I question myself.When my mum was alive I never felt the emptiness I fell now when she is not with me.When I wad young,I kept running around her and pulling her clothes for attention.
I feel so restless now; something is bothering my mind.I have never spoken in a sharp tone to my mother nor have I deprived her of money or anything that she needed,but deep down I feel my mum needed something else from me.
Slowly,I go to her room and gently open the door.Strangely,mum is there;I can see her prayer things on the altar.The smell of incense permeates the air.The ringing of the bell and the chanting of prayers woke me up in the morning for almost 50 years.Now there is total silence.
For the first time,I see the tulsi plant in her balcony.Lush with leaves.As I look around,feeling her presence in every part of the room,I see a open diary lying on the table.I walk towards it,thinking maybe she would have written her last wishes in her diary.I take it in my hands,smell it and gently turn the pages...She had a story to tell...
She wrote: "i asked rajesh to get a diary for me." Her words ring in my ear as I asked her, "mum,at this age why you need a diary?" when she told me what she had requested from my son.I read further; She said "I have many thoughts running through my mind and I want to write them down."
That evening,I bought the diary and told my son to give it to mum.It never occured to me to find out what she had to say.My only concern was to get her whatever she desired so she would not nag me.I continue reading...
"To my beloved grandchildren,Rahul." I quickly turn to the next page. "Rahul I love you very much,especially your parents.And my child,don't ever do anything that will hurt them." Somehow, I find the courage to turn to the next page.
"Rahul,I hope thet you grow up to be like your father.However,do not make the mistakes that your father made.I know Rahul,that your father is a very good man.He just forgot to do something that was important to me.Rahul,after sometime,aperson experiences emptiness in her or his life.Parents do not even think for a second about their responsibilities of bringing up theif children but as they grow old,a certain fear comes into their mind.Are they a burden to theif children?
When your father was young,he would come back in the evening and lie on my lap for comfort.He would keep calling out my name for no apparent reason,and it always puts a smile on my face when I think of those times.As i grew older,I guess I still wanted my son to call out my name from time to time.After all,in my eyes he i still my little boy.Rahul,if ever your mother or father have no one else to turn to,make sure you are there.Make sure you have time for them.
Go to their bedroom and talk to them.Look at old albums and talk about old times spend together.They will feel good and wanted.Sometimes hug them as they hugged you when you were young.Call out your mother's name just like you did when you were young.Rahul,I remember when your father was still studying,there was a function at school.He insisted that I dress up well so everyone could see how beautiful I was.It was your father who adjusted my saree.The care and concern he showed made me feel on top of the world for days.Even till today,I smile when I think about that day.Now things are different.He asks his wife to see if his mother needs anything.
Rahul,you might think I'm being petty.You will not understand all this now but as you grow old,you will understand my feelings.
God will always take care of you.Those who take care of their parents will always be taken care of.Your mother and father have always taken care of me.You too must take care of them and remember the things I have written to you.
My child,when someone grows old,theif biggest enemy is loneliness.In their old age,make your parents feel wanted.Take extra care of them.Every day,make them feel their presence in the house.Each day say 'mum' or 'dad' six or seven times because they love to hear that.Sometimes sleep on your mum's lap so that she can still comfort you.Now that you are a big boy,remember to always take care of my son.That's all Rahul.This is all i can write because I can't stop my tears from flowing."
I clutch the diary as hard as I can and call out to my mum but it is too late.I bite my lips as i can't control my feelings.I realise that I could not give my mum what she wanted and all I have are regrets.
We fail to see beyond our busy lives.The lives of our parents- as we get busier by the day,making a good future for us and our children- are sidelined.Our parents,who have given us the baton to run further in the relay of life,are left in emptiness.When all they want in their twilight years is to be needed.

at last..all over ler

yippie~~
concert..Brother Paul dinner..KK day..all over ler..
i can rest ler!! XD
at last ler..
since...b4 de concert..not realy hav a gud rest although we hav 2 week holiday...
practice so hard for our concert..ITS BRAVO!!hahaha

KK day ler..very tired..i feel more tired den concert..at least concert..i stil can enjoy although very dam tired..
KK day..which make mi realy very stress n frustrated..
where..almost all..waiting for command oni..cant they tink n do by themself..
very sad yesterday..til i burst out everythg..my tear..haizzz..duno for wad oso..waste my tear nia..F3~~
soon..after i burst all my tempered..outside there RAINING!! woots..raining..dats de most cooling time..wha...fun ler..
i was playing under de rain dat time..cooling myself..very FUN!
de rain..fall to my body..very cold..
den..duno from where..come de football! PLOXX!!
i start to enjoy myself there...having fun..coz..playing while under de rain..my stress on dat time was totaly gone..it jz like..de GOD asking mi to b happy..(although its fake) =p
haha..den..after enjoying..hav to start work again..eeee~~ hate it!!
btw..kind of very paiseh to info ldr(helmi)..actualy..its not ur fault..(when im bursting)
haha..so..dun blame urself ler.. =p
GREAT!!all over le..i can rest ler~
phew~~
^^

when you're old

time passby very fas..in a blink of an eye..u're old..
where..de time ur tinking back bout de past..
from small..where u're stil hanging n playing..
joking wit ur mum n dad..
til..ur frenz..playing a fool..in sch..outside..de activities dat hav done..
for 11 years..de frenship..de events dat they join together..de place..where they go b4..
de time..where they spend alot on practice..all de tear,joy,happines..oredy pass
when u're old..where..ur dad n mum wil leave u..de place..where they going ..which..we cant go..
they looking at u..growing..having ur own family..
ur own child..til they growth..
til de time..they hav their own family..
de time..where..ur old now..
where..ur son...or ..ur daughter..having their own life..
til..they busy of their own lifestyle n forgotten bout u dis old ppl..
time..when ur suffering for loneliness..
de tears drop..from de cheek..
every celebration..birthday..new year..x'mas..merdeka..your tears drop..
its bcoz..where they free..de time..where they calling u mom/dad...
ur grandchildren...all ur family members..come back..jz to wish u..hope..
u're healthy always..coz..we want to cal ur name always..
appreciate ur family members..ur frenz..
time flow very fas..til..u cant accept..1 by 1 are leaving u..

~Hon3y~

my maple life~~

1st..lets start from..my maple dar..XD
he ah..kind of a nice maple dar..which..he wil never leave mi alone..no matter on training..hunting..or doing quest..nice rite..!!? =p
wadever wad im doing..he wil always support mi(thx maple dar)

2nd..maple daddy & mummy~~miss u all lerh~~XD

which..my daddy is a DK!!WHOA..i can train very fas..due to..daddy killing in mong..im jz healing..sad de is...i keep on die!! f5!! mummy ler~~kind of very funny de..n CUTE!! =p

daddy~~mummy~~forever~~

ok..lets come to..all de frenz..(angel,vampy,cupid)

start from angel..hmmp..which..as wad u noe from de name..angel ma..
but..hw come act like devil de!!(omg..she gonna kill mi~~my pot~~omg!!bankrupt)

wakakaka..
vampy ler..hmmp...which..wil keep ( XD) .. =.="

where..wanna train..but..in de wrong place lol..u should ask cupid la!!he training fas..although..*ahem* u noe la.. =p

cupid ah..lol..which..on 2x..he wil dc non-stop!!WAKAKAKA!!(lol..like so evil =p)

lol..jk..f3~where..he realy xtreme cute..ahhh..lol..eh..angel..ur pot!! pity cupid la..bo slot nia XD

hehe..okok..lets go other maple frenz..kawai~~which almost got 3years relationship in maple le!!

walao..so long!! haiz..she oso pro ler(lvl 172 recently)..i stil noob(lvl 109 nia)..sobx..c la...haiz..sobx nia

ok..most of my maple life..which..i hav a lot of char..de highest..oni lvl 109..lol..lame de..

current de got lvl 97 prz.. n now de late KoC char..lvl 52 ler..yippie..there's other noob char..dun hav to mention..=p since..its noob

my lvl 109(ice mage)..most of dat train from pq..lucky..when i orbis pq..stil got gpq..whoa..lvl xtreme fas.later on..no more pq ler..time to cry..wher.e.i hav to train ler..lvl 71~train at mp3 n parking lot til lvl 85~..den.go for bain..til lvl 99~100 i tink..later on..go for sotong..haiz..dam boring ler..for my prz..whoa..all pq..til lvl 71~time for mong!!wakakaka..dats y lvl so fas..Koc char..hmmp..stil de same..pqpqpqpq!!wad else can do..i dat kind of lazy do quest!training..very bored very fas..so..pq..de best..wakakaka..

dats my life in de maple..weeee~~ ^^

you're not alone

a life..which..u're not going to b alone til de end of ur life..
from small..u wil hav ur family to accompany u..
which..where all ur happiness wil come..
de sweet memory in ur life..dat wil b never forgotten.
soon..ur study life start..where..can mix lots of frenz..(yippie)
frenz..there's lot of type..is de time where u hav to choose de fren to mix wit..
frenz..creates lot of memory..(happy,sad,angry..)
frenz..they can make u happy anytime..til u wil laugh non-stop..
frenz..they oso can make u cry anytime(dun mistaken,they wil make u cry..when de time u leave de study world..where..frenz..gonna leave each other appart..)
frenz..they can make u awake..when..i go to a wrong way..
frenz..dat wil never leave u alone alwayz..
frenz..they wil scold u..angry u..its bcoz..they care bout u..they luv u..
soon..few more years later..u going to hav ur own family..
de life wil keep recycle..
til de end of de world..
where..de time for all of us to say goodbye..
FAMILY...FRENZ...dat nid to b appreciate all de time..
luv u all forever~
every second..every minutes..every hours..
they might leave u anytime..

~someone..dat wil accompany u always~